I don't have to keep the secret of my ever growing belly, anymore. My madre comes to visit in four days! It's actually cool enough not to have the AC on in October. And I think most importantly the reason for my relaxation, is the fact that we got to see someone from home tonight. The hubs's good friend is in town this week for something with his work. So, tonight we all got together for dinner.
It was great.
I actually put makeup on for the first time in a couple of weeks. I got out of my jeans and flip flops and got to wear leggings and boots. Ahhh, to dress up.
At dinner, we talked like the old friends we are. It was relaxed and comfortable. We weren't trying to get to know anyone. We didn't have to be on our best behavior, either. It was ok that HRJ couldn't sit still for more than five minutes or that I ate all the salsa at the table. Whoops.
We talked about our old city and our friends. Everything that he said, we knew exactly what he was talking about and vice versa. I felt myself smiling differently, than I have recently. I wasn't trying to navigate my way anywhere. I wasn't trying to figure out how things are done. I wasn't trying to smile at my neighbor in the hopes that they would want to talk to me and become my friend. The four of us just were. We were just friends having dinner. It was what I needed, it was what the hubs needed.
When we drove away, the hubs mentioned that he could tell I was much more relaxed. I guess I am, I thought. Because for the first time in a couple of months I didn't feel completely out of place and lost.
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